I've been thinking lately. I'm going to die one day right? And what then? Who will carry on my family's name? My sister's not and it's just me and her. I don't know why but all I know is life is short and I'm thinking about ending up down the road in life having kids. It's improbable now but it's possible. I just want to go knowing that my family will last.

I'm young, maybe I shouldn't be thinking about this stuff but I've always been that guy, the young one who grew up too fast and felt like shit knowing he fucked up his youth. Whatever though. Damage is done, life moves on. I was just thinking about all this stuff when I was taking a nap.

"What's the point of all this? If there's nothing to contribute to, nothing to leave when I go?"

"I need someone to keep the legacy going"

Fuck who knows, maybe I'll keep the Marine corps legacy going and then god knows maybe my kid will be the next patton in the Oil wars of the future. That's selfish though to think that, I'd love my kid either way, gay or straight, weird or normal.

I just don't want to be alone forever. I've had enough lol


Well I'm just rambling bullshit out of my head. And my thoughts can get me in deep shit sometimes but I felt like ranting this for the hell of it. Later.